Mamma Musings - Sarah B
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• Sarah, I would love to hear about your journey.
What are you nurturing right now?
Right now I'm nurturing both my vulnerability and my strength as a woman. I want to teach my daughter about that strength because she may be only 1 year old but she sees and feels EVERYTHING. Alongside that strength, I want to show her real life, as well. Sometimes our home can be filled with so much love and good vibes and I know she's feeling it, then at times, there can be tension, mixed emotions, communication barriers, and different energy, but despite all that she sees and that she feels, she still always continues to love continuously.
That's what is so special about children, they observe without judgment.
My mum and dad would always go into another room if they ever fought because they believed that was better we didn't see. That worked for them, and I guess for me, and like everyone's unique situation, things are a bit different. I'm not proud she sees conflict in our home sometimes, (we are working on that one) but I always explain to her why it's happening (without belittling others involved of course). !!! I think the first year is the hardest, but It's getting better!
• What’s the biggest challenge in your life at the moment? Where are you making the most progress?
Before I had my daughter, alone time was super important for my soul, my growth, my rest and recharge, and reflection time. Now I always have someone by my side, whether it's her, my husband, family or friends. I miss "me" so much. I Miss traveling so much and I secretly long for that.
But yes, the biggest challenge I guess is losing my alone time, along with my spontaneous self... the girl that would just wake up early and run over to the beach, swim and sit in the sand, breathe and soak up the morning sun, alone, for as long as I wanted. Or go to a yoga class when I feel like it. Or just jump in the car and drive somewhere just because I felt like it. I can still do those things for sure but each time, there's an extra little person to think about, to prepare for, to care for. I think a woman goes through a lot of changes both emotionally, physically, and hormonal postpartum, and it takes time to readjust. Its actually taken me a whole year to start to feel almost normal again. I remember having a Dream one night I was in a room with two other women and they were dancing so beautifully, so gracefully and I was dancing too but then I realized I was in a straight jacket and couldn't move my arms. I woke up super upset about the dream but then realized its significance to my life at that moment, accepted it, and laughed it off with my friend. I think it's important to realize that in life, it's always changing, and to just flow with the impermanence of the stages that arrive and in time; pass.
• Where do you get your inspiration?
I've had a funny mix of culture going on in my world for a while, which I draw my inspiration from. I feel like I have a lot of Dreams and thoughts around that. When I was 24, I went to India for the first time by myself to complete my yoga teacher training course. I was only going for a month but stayed for 10. The second time I went back I studied classical Odissi dance in Pushkar.... such an amazing style of dance. But India, the real India... I really fell in love with everything there. It's such a crazy beautiful place that will bring everything to the surface for you to see and feel. I think that place changed me and still continues to inspire me. I am really inspired by imagery, movement, and cultural dance that tells stories... watching the lines of a board on a wave... watching the ebb and flow of the ocean.
My inspiration also comes from music; old music... world music; that really takes me to a place I can only imagine.
I'm inspired by different food from other countries.
When I was traveling, I stayed in local homes a lot and enjoyed sharing their food altogether. There's something so special about that.
Oooooh, and spending time in nature! I mean real quiet time....
• What women inspire you the most?
I have a close friend who is a single mum of 6.
She lived in quite secluded areas in nature with her family for at least 15 years, and finally got the courage to walk away from a long relationship of physical and emotional control & abuse with the father of her children. Listening to all her stories from the past to this day, I have never met anyone who has come out of something like that with such strength, compassion, and Grace, not to mention being an amazing mum. (I do know it was her kids that gave her strength to keep going). When I spend time with her kids they are so open with each other and their mumma because she is so open with them.
They feel comfortable to talk to her about anything. I really hope I can have that type of relationship with my daughter when she grows up.
She has a heart of gold and a smile full of love that everyone around her feel instantly happy when in her company. This woman... she is truly a one of a kind angel.
• If you could talk to your 12-year-old self, what would you tell her?
Don't ever stop shining or lower/degrade yourself to make other people feel more comfortable.
... and all those little notes and poems you wrote at your window and read them to the stars; they're going to come true when you're older. Manifestation really worked!! Maybe not at the exact times I wanted things but everything I wished for came true in their own perfect timing.
It's still my dream to live next to a waterfall on a mountain in Hawaii so maybe I'm going to start writing those letters again? :)
• How do you feel most nurtured/ most loved?
I feel the most nurtured after ocean swims, taking time to do yoga, or having a massage, but also a few wines and deep and meaningful with good friends.
• What do you love most about yourself? How do you show your love for others?
I love that people can feel themselves around me... open to sharing things with me knowing I won't judge them.
Because I make friends easily and love everyone, I sometimes feel like I don't have enough time for my close friends and that is something I am working on. Its been present through the years, and I am aware of that. I love that I'm trying every day to be a good mum, (that doesn't mean the perfect mum).
In a child's eyes, all their mommas are perfect. And all mums will never feel like the perfect mum.
I just try to be fun, open, honest, and nurture her as much as possible while trying to nurture myself, my diet (like making time for healthy eating), my friendships and relationships. All at the same time.
The mum juggle.
• What can you not live without?
Music, the ocean and my little Kaimana.
I forgot...: SUNSHINE!!!
• In what areas do YOU shine?
I like to bring peoples moods up, and to share the information I have to make their lives better, healthier... happier.
I love all my friends and I like to connect the people that I love and I've seen many of them go on to form long term friendships.
• What are 3 non-negotiable traits that you believe are important to see in people?
Listening, trust, optimism.
• The smartest decision you ever made?
leaving my comfort zone to travel
• What are you most grateful for?
Water, health and friends who care.
• If you had to describe yourself in 3 words, what would they be?
Caring, optimistic... no idea what else, lol!!
• If you could change anything in the world, what would it be?
I would replace smartphones with conversation. I think people are getting way too dependant on phones and I worry what it is doing to peoples psychological health.
• What would you like to be known/remembered for? How do you share your magic to the world?
Smiles, a warm heart, fun times, a good Mumma, down to earth, all that kinda stuff! :) and as for magic.... well Kaimana and I sing and dance to Aladdin with a beautiful bright scarf and float around the living room together, she thinks it's hilarious and I think it's magic!